FIGHT-2017 Word for the Year

For the past few weeks I have been thinking about my word for 2017! I have chosen a word thrice in past years: In 2014 my word was HOPE, in 2015 it was Change and in 2016 I chose the word FORWARD. All  of these words were chosen because of Richard. 2014 was the year he was so sick and then died. So I knew 2015 would be a year of Change. And this year I felt the need to move forward. Problem is, I don't really feel I moved forward very much. I am still grieving the loss of my soul mate. And I expect I will have a good ways to go until I find peace with this loss. 

I have toyed with several words on my way to choosing the word that fits me this year. I thought about STRENGTH because I will need strength to keep seeing me through this life God has chosen for me to live. I tossed around the word WALK. But I really need to RUN, not walk. Enough of this walking. POSITIVE is a good word for me because I fight with needing to be more positive, all the time. Yesterday, I added the word BELIEVE to the list. Who doesn't need BELIVE to be their word? 

But there was a single word that kept popping up whenever I was thinking about my word for 2017. I kept thinking about how everyday I fight little battles. We all do. I fight self-doubt quite a bit. I fight negativity. It is so easy to be negative in the face of so much loss. I feel like I am a "small boat on the ocean. Sending big waves into motion." I kept hearing this song, over and over, in my head. I moved to it's beat. It played on the radio today, on my way home from taking Harley to work. When I pulled into the garage, turned off the car engine, and sat there for a moment as the song finished, I knew I had my word for 2017. Sometimes the word has to find you.

Fight

That's it! My word is fight. I will fight for strength this year. Strength to get me through whatever obstacles get thrown in my way. I will be brave and fight the challenges that my life has become. I am a widow, a single mother (grandmother in my case), a retired lady who is living in a hard world on a fixed income. I will fight to survive. Because I am a survivor. I will fight the self-doubt, the negativity, the 'wrecking balls' because I still have a lot of fight left in me.

As the song says, "I'm taking back my life".