Each time another month comes and goes I say the same thing: It seems like so long ago and yet it seems like yesterday! I wonder if it will always feel this way. The holiday season is making it all seem so fresh again. I miss him so much right now that I feel as if I am walking about with fresh pain in my heart every single day. A fullness in my throat and a pain in my heart. Will it ever go completely away? I hope so and then again I hope not. As long as there is pain I know he is buried in my heart. I miss you so much Richard. I wish I could feel you close. I don't! I wish I could see you one more time. I can't! I want to hear you say: "I love you sweetheart"...I don't! I only know that you did. And I have to take comfort in that.