SOMETHING THAT FILLS ME WITH LOVE
These two fill me with love. This is an old picture (1994) Justin was graduating from high school. And I had not yet become estranged from my oldest son. They are as different as day and night. As different as hot and cold. As different as sons can be. I love them both. I wish we could fix this family. That day will come I am sure. They fill me with love and I am grateful for both of them, in one way or another!
They have the same eyes... their souls are intertwined. My family is estranged as well because I haven't had a relationship with my sister in about 8 years... at times I think "What in the world are we NOT talking for" but then I remember how calculating, manipulative and negative she really is and then I'm glad that's not part of my life anymore. It would be such a forced relationship that I don't believe would be natural feeling.... :( I can't, however, imagine losing that relationship with my own children.... i know that leaves an empty space inside... I hope time helps heal the wound but never fills the hole until your family is made intact again.
ReplyDeleteActually their eyes are different colors: Danny has green and Justin's are blue. I understand about the sister issue too...I have a sister and one brother that don't communicate with me anymore. I know why, but life is too short for all the game playing. And I am just tired and need to move on. It has been 6 years with Danny and our family. I'm not holding out much hope!
DeleteA mama's heart is always filled with her love for her children. I'm sorry that there is a problem, Paula...but I know that your love is still felt by your oldest...whether he knows it or not.
ReplyDeleteI hope that you are right Dianna!
DeleteThey are handsome! I hope the family is fixed one day, Paula. It is hard to not have a close relationship, especially with children.
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They are handsome aren't they? I hope it is fixed too. But it has to be fixed inside out before we can move on
DeleteI pray he finds his way back home soon and is able to slay all his demons. Stay strong Paula.
ReplyDeleteThanks Wendy
DeleteI hope your wish comes true and the family is healed. There truly is nothing like family.
ReplyDeleteThat is true Kwiz!
DeleteJustin looks just like you! I hope things will one day be repaired between you and your son. I've read your blog long enough to know a bit of the issue, and it's a difficult one. You're doing the right thing. I pray it gets better!
ReplyDeleteEveryone tells us how much Justin looks like me. And Danny is very much like his dad. Thank you for the prayers. It is a bit of an issue for sure
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