This is part of my 31 Day Five Minute Free Writes challenge within a challenge Letters to Richard...my recently deceased husband. I will be linking up with 31 Day Challenge at The Nester's as well as at Heading Home. For a list of all my letters you can go here.
Dear Richard:
I am stuck! I feel so alone and isolated. I feel as if I am standing in this same spot. The spot where I was on July 21, 2014 when you left me. The world has gone on. The sun continues to shine. People are going about their business. And I am stuck!
My life feels empty. Taking care of you filled my days. There were hard days as you are well aware. There were many days when I didn't think I could go on for one more day. But we did. We had each other and we plodded forward. I know that you felt bad for what I was going through. And I am sorry for that. It was never my intention to make you feel bad. It was just hard. It was hard for both of us.
I wonder how you are. Where you are. Are you stuck? I talk to you often. Do you hear me? I know, with time, I will get un-stuck and be able to move forward. But for now I just miss you very, very much.....
Love always,
Paula
Paula, it sounds like your head's telling you one thing, but your heart's the stronger influence. Right now.
ReplyDeleteI hope you don't grow weary of people (like me) saying "take your time."
Particularly when the night sky comes alive, I talk to my parents and my former husband all the time - and yes, I believe they can hear me. Don't stop talking, girlfriend!!!
My friend I will never tire of anything you have to say. I will take my time. I will stay stuck as long as I need to and to hell with anyone that thinks that is wrong.
DeleteYou and Richard were stuck together incredibly in love; that is going to be something that will be hard to get "un-stuck" from and you and only you will know when it is the right time to do so if ever.
ReplyDeletebetty
Thanks Betty. I think you are right
DeleteI think he is looking down on you from heaven. I think he is very happy there!
ReplyDeleteI don't know Fancy, I just don't know!
DeleteI know I sound like a broken record...but I think these letters to Richard are wonderful. Writing is great therapy. Thanks for sharing them with us.
ReplyDeleteThanks for continuing to come. I am sure people are sick of it all...
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