
Dearest Richard:
Loving you was such an honor. I didn't always know that. Love can sometimes be volatile. And we had those days, didn't we. It's funny how I remember all the good times and let the other times slip away. Once in awhile I will have a fluttering glimpse of a silly little fight and smile inwardly. I remember the day I threw that hand mirror and it shattered all over the bathroom floor. You were calm. And didn't respond. But just walked away. You never fought back. And that was so irritating to me. You always told me that I was 'fire' and you were 'water'. Now I see how true that was.
You was my soft place to land. The peacemaker. The voice of reason. A soft smile from you grounded me. I miss that. I close my eyes and search for your face. I long to hear your voice. To hear you say "I love you, sweetheart" one more time. It was such an honor...
Forever and ever,
Paula
Beautiful, Paula. Your story of the hand mirror makes me smile! (That's a lot of self-control Richard had going there, huh?)
ReplyDeleteLike one of my favorite songs, I love you're affirming, "It's the laugher, we will remember, when we remember."
He was a man full of self-control when it came to anger. Not so much with the tender emotions. He cried easily. Especially after his stroke
DeleteYou were very lucky to have this relationship and now, memories. What fun to throw something in anger and have that other person just walk away! That's a good guy.
ReplyDeleteI don't know if I would call it fun. It was exasperating!
DeleteI have to agree with the other commenters about Richard walking away after you threw the hand mirror. That took restraint!
ReplyDeletebetty
I think that he knew that walking away would get me even more stirred up. He was like that
DeleteYou are welcomevmy friend
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