This is part of my 31 Day Five Minute Free Writes challenge within a challenge. I will be linking up with 31 Day Challenge at The Nester's as well as at Heading Home. For a list of all my letters you can go here.My dear Richard:
Yesterday, when I wrote to you, we talked about life. Today I have to talk about adjusting. It isn't easy to adjust to a new life that doesn't have you in it. You were always better at adjusting that I was. I am not good with change. I want things to remain status quo. Remember all the conversations we had about this? I haven't changed. And I hate having my life changed. And it really changed the day you left me.
I will adjust. That much I know for sure. (Remember that Oprah reference.) Are you smiling? But I'm not going to hurry through this process. Because re-living the memories makes me feel closer to you. And that is the kind of adjustment I need.
There will be many days ahead that will take me to some deep, dark places. But I know I will make it. I will adjust. When the time is right.
Loving you always,
Paula
I too don't like change, Paula. You are wise to take your time adjusting.
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It is hard when you are a person that doesn't like change, isn't it? Change is going on around us all the time.
DeleteHugs Paula....you are doing great!
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DeleteTwo of my least favorite words - change and adjust. I know that's what it's all about, but dang it's uncomfortable! Good going, Paula!
ReplyDeleteIt is uncomfortable and I don't like it either. But I am taking just tiny little steps forward. I feel it!
DeleteAdjustment would be so difficult! I struggle with change as well. I liked your inside joke you shared, even if I don't really get it. :)
ReplyDeleteI don't like Oprah and yet I always seem to quote her. He made fun of me for that.....
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