Beauty
To say that I find beauty in care-giving would be a lie. Most of it is not fun, entertaining, and by far not beautiful. But there are things about my 'patient' that is beautiful. I find beauty in his hands. I have talked about that before here. I find beauty in his eyes. On the days when they are clear and fully seeing what is going on around him; that is beauty. Mostly they are clouded over and I wonder about what he sees. I find beauty in his smile. Even though he only has two bottom teeth and can't wear his partial any longer. I love that toothless grin of his. It brings a song to my heart and makes me want to dance. But where I find the most beauty is in the way that he loves me. His love of me is unconditional. And I feel it wrapping it's arms around me everyday. No matter what is going on in our day he never fails to convey to me how much he loves me. When I am feeling angry, sad, over-whelmed, ready to be done with it all.....a toothless grin from him and the words "I love you!" centers me and brings me right back to why I am doing this journey. And I wouldn't leave him behind for anything. He is the beauty in my life.
Now I am linking up with Lisa and seeing how others find beauty in the lives. See you there?
There is that wonderful love story. I just melt for you two! Isn't amazing what we will do for love? What we can endure? How, even locked inside his Parkinson's, he still knows YOU and loves YOU and appreciates YOU. And is smart enough (from all those years of being a husband) to remember to smile and appreciate and love you for all that you do for him and the kids and everyone else in your world. You are amazing and quite BEAUTIFUL, I think!
ReplyDeleteThank you Lisa. I was LUCKY to have found him!
DeleteThat is a beautiful love story, and the most beautiful thing I have seen or heard yet today.
ReplyDeleteIt is only OUR story. Nothing special. But I am happy that he is my husband
DeleteThis telling is so moving, Paula. It's amazing how Real Love colors our perception ... almost humbling when you think about it.
ReplyDeleteI have never really thought about 'real' love before. I am just happy to have the love that I have.
DeleteThis is so sweet, Paula. I love how you can find beauty in your situation and that the beauty comes from the love of your husband and your love for him.
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This was written yesterday. Today is another day. Today I am not seeing beauty in anything!!
DeleteAbsolutely beautiful Paula. It made me teary. You are both so lucky to have each other.
ReplyDeleteI don't know how lucky he is but I know that he is what I needed when I found him!
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