Dead, yet still breathing.
Looking out of eyes
Glazed over; not seeing.
He looks right at me
But what does he see?
It seems as if he's looking
Somewhere beyond me.
Is this really better?
Than a face filled with pain?
I'm pondering how
I will keep being sane.
I make myself remember
Many months ago.
When we talked about this.
About letting go.
He said he wasn't ready
But he didn't want pain.
I'll honor his wishes.
We'll be together again.
My heart aches at your pain. I am so sorry. I can not do anything to help you except send prayers and hugs your way.... which is what I am doing.
ReplyDeleteThanks! That will help us a lot
DeleteI so wish there were something I could do to help....sending hugs, love and prayers for strength
ReplyDeleteThat is exactly what I need Wendy. thank You!
DeleteI can't fathom what it must be like. I appreciate when you share your life so openly.
ReplyDeleteIt is far worse than I ever imagined it to be
DeleteThinking of you and saying a prayer for you both.
ReplyDeleteThank you Fancy
DeleteWords just fail at this time. My heart prays for you.
ReplyDeleteThank you Elaine
Delete(((Paula and hubby))) prayers being said
ReplyDeletebetty
THanks Betty!
DeleteHugs and prayers!
ReplyDeleteThank you Myra
DeletePlease accept my prayers for you and your family.
ReplyDeleteHappily and gladly! Keep them coming
DeleteDear Paula ... such a difficult time for you - a release from pain is the best for him and for you ... you are describing these days so well - not all easy ... and I've seen the pain and anguish too from my uncle, my mother hardly - thankfully ... the release when it comes is the right time ... with many thoughts to you and the family, but especially you - Hilary
ReplyDeleteYes, it is Hilary. Thank you for stopping in.
DeleteI wish you peace of mind and a peaceful state, free from pain, for Richard.
ReplyDeleteThank you lyndagrace
DeletePaula, I've been thinking of you all day. I can't imagine what you must be going through. I wish I could be there to help or hold your hand or bring you a glass of wine or just listen. I am so sorry for this awful time. Thinking of you and as always, praying for you both.
ReplyDeleteThank you Lisa.....I feel your presence
DeleteDear Paula, giving him relief from the pain has to be the best thing for your to do right now. This is so sad to read, to be far away and not able to give you a hug. Please know that I am thinking of you and Richard and remember that you are not letting go of your love for him. That will always be there, keeping you connected.
ReplyDeleteThank you for these words Inger. They really help!!
DeleteThis must be excruciating. You can't really say goodbye under the circumstances and perhaps the time is past for that. Please know that deep down he probably senses your love and your presence although you can't see that. Freedom from pain is what he needs now.
ReplyDeleteIt is excruciating...it is painful...it sucks big time. But we are still on the roller coaster. Waiting and riding
DeleteHi Paula,
ReplyDeleteI and my family (mom, siblings, and all relatives) are now going through this as my dad is in his last 'days' (according to the dr), having fought prostate cancer for 6 years, and now dementia as well. His body is tired. He sleeps a lot. Lots of visiting and hugs and kisses and prayers. He's not awake too much anymore. It's a difficult time and I thank you for writing your words about your experiences.