I am hanging in there with the challenge from The Nester's. Follow all of my posts about Practicing Patience here.
Do you know some of the signs and symptoms of major mental illness?
- mood swings
- crying spells
- chronic fatigue
- lack of energy
- sleeping too much or too little
And all of these are also the symptoms that a full-time caregiver has. And they are all normal. Why wouldn't I be sad? I am watching the man whom I have loved for more than 30 years waste away before my eyes. And THAT causes me anxiety. I feel guilty because I am IMPATIENT with him. I criticize myself and blame myself all the time. And let's not even get started talking about the crying spells. I NEVER take a shower without crying. Cause that is a good place to cry; where I am uninterrupted. Where no one wants to know 'what is wrong?' I am tired all the time. I have no energy or any desire to do the things that I used to do. I can't clean house like I used to. Although, I do think that because of Richard's illness I cook more than I ever have. And if I am NOT sleeping, I am thinking about sleeping. I nap when I can and as often as I can. When he sleeps (which isn't much) I sleep.
So, no, I am not mentally ill. Yet anyway. But I am a caregiver. And I am practicing patience!