Day 7, Tuesday: The thing(s) you're most afraid of
Things I am afraid of!
Things I am afraid of!
(not necessarily in this order)
Mice
Mice
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I have discussed this irrational fear before.
In fact, I had a picture here of a real mouse, but it bothered me so much that I had to delete it and add this one.
Yes, I know this is an irrational fear.
But I am not just scared of mice.
I am terrified.
Yes, I know this is an irrational fear.
But I am not just scared of mice.
I am terrified.
Growing old Alone
I have worked in a nursing home. I have seen those who never have a family member visit. Those who sit alone and stare off into the distance. Those who get excited on weekends when they are just sure their family will come to eat lunch with them. The ones who make excuses because their kids don't come. I do not want to grow old alone. I know that I will not grow old with my beloved husband. But I don't want to grow old alone.
I have worked in a nursing home. I have seen those who never have a family member visit. Those who sit alone and stare off into the distance. Those who get excited on weekends when they are just sure their family will come to eat lunch with them. The ones who make excuses because their kids don't come. I do not want to grow old alone. I know that I will not grow old with my beloved husband. But I don't want to grow old alone.
Death
I don't know if I am afraid of death. I believe in God. I believe in Heaven. I believe in the hereafter. But that does not keep me from being afraid of death. I am afraid of what I don't know. I am afraid of not being! I am afraid of my husband's dying. Is it crazy that a nurse is afraid of death?
Am I afraid of DEATH. Or is it the unknown that I am afraid of?
Guns
No, I am not afraid of guns. I hate guns. I won't have a gun in my house. I don't feel that I need a gun to protect myself and my family. But I am terrified of what our country is becoming. I am afraid of the deaths that are caused by guns in this country. I am afraid of crazy kids that go to schools with guns. I am afraid of the gun-toting citizen who thinks he is going to protect everyone with his concealed gun and instead he shoots me or my loved ones. I am afraid for the kids in this country who live in homes with guns that are being kept because their parents feel like it is their right. That whole Second Amendment thing. And if I have heard it once, I have heard it a million times: An unloaded gun is like not having a gun at all!. There are too many loaded guns in houses where little children live. And that scares the hell out of me. I don't understand why we can't have better background checks. I don't understand why gun owners don't want their guns registered I don't understand why automatic weapons are even sold to the common everyday John Q Public. I don't understand why we can't have mental evaluations on every gun owner in America.
I don't understand.
And it makes me afraid.
For me, being scared of death is more like being scared of dying. Being dead, you can't feel anything or know anything. But it's the suffering you might experience when you're dying that can be terrifying to think about :/
ReplyDeleteI think the thought of there is just NOTHING after you are dead is pretty scary. Anyway it is to me.
DeleteI agree about the guns.
ReplyDeleteThank you. We need better control as far as I am concerned
DeleteGrowing old alone, is something that I try not think about to much but when it creeps in, the thought just terrifies me.
ReplyDeleteIt is scary, isn't it!
DeleteGrowing old alone, tick.
ReplyDeleteGuns they just scare me, so do knives.
Death doesn't scare me at all as long as it is on my terms.
Betrayal scares me, losing friends too.
Dentists scare me big time x
Oh I totally forgot about the dentist. Me too!
DeleteThird times a charm for me, Paula. I've tried multiple times to reply. Let me try again:
ReplyDeleteMice? Not so much. Snakes. YIKES!
It is not death that I fear, but living. Thank you for your visit, today.
Growing old, alone? This is one of the greatest tragedies that I can think of, and one that I will ask God to grant me understanding of when I depart this world.
Being a nurse and fearing death? Oh, how proud I am that you can voice this, and how great it is that we are blessed with caregivers, such as yourself, that have the humility and the humanity to do the work that you do. Bless you!
Yes it is hard to be a nurse and fear death. I accept it, but I fear it. It is the unknown that I fear
DeleteI only fear my government taking away my rights guaranteed by the 2nd Amendment. For once if falls the 1st will be right behind
ReplyDeleteAnd you didn't have any trouble at all signing in to comment on this one did you! You can comment on the rest of them too you know! There is no reason to fear the government. That is one of those 'irrational' fears, me thinks!
DeleteI don't understand the gun issue either - gun control worked in Australia, it makes sense. So why can't a fairly intelligent country do what makes sense? Until then...add it my list of worries & fears too!
ReplyDeleteI couldn't imagine what you see, working in a nursing home...both the fear of growing old alone and also of death. Must be heart wrenching, all that you witness. Takes a strong person to continue to do that, despite the fears it brings.
I no longer work in the nursing home Ella. I am a full time home care giver to my husband.
DeleteIt breaks my heart thinking about those people, patiently waiting for their loved ones to visit.
ReplyDeleteI used to fear death, but like you mentioned, I think mine was more of a "what happens?" type thing...fear of the unknown
It is heartbreaking to see some of the residents be so disappointed.
DeleteInternet Explorer Sux, Chrome isn't much better. It's like writing a letter to a person in Alaska then having to push the mailman's jeep all the way there for delivery.
ReplyDeleteA trustable government would leave the Constitution and bill of rights alone as the are the back bone of this nation. Enforce the laws you have now is all we ask
A man (or in this case men) wrote those laws. And men can be wrong. People make mistakes. Maybe they were wrong when they wrote the Constitution. New things happen in my life all the time. Nothing stays the same. I don't think the Constitution has to stay the same either. I am all for making this a better country to live in. One that is safe for all the people. One that has fewer guns.
DeleteP.S. I love Google Chrome. What is it you are having problems with?
Well some of those things make a lot of sense. I'm not afraid of mice though, although I don't mind when my cats get rid of them.
ReplyDeleteKristen's latest #BlogEveryDayInMay post: Everyday in May: Spiders Up the Water Spout
Oh I can't even imagine what it would be like not to be afraid of mice
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