Monday, January 18, 2021

Will Things Really Get Better

 We are on the cusp of new leadership in America. And I, for one, am glad. These last four years have been so chaotic. I know there will be people who will want to remind me of the booming economy we USED to have. I didn't get any benefits at all from the economy. Did you? I live entirely on a fixed income so I didn't get any boosts. I did, however, tighten my belt because I feared what may come. And these past couple of weeks have born that out.


No one could have seen a pandemic coming. But we should have been prepared for it. We had a pandemic office at the federal government but something happened to it. And we were just simply not ready to help Americans get through it. We didn't have enough masks. We didn't have enough hospital beds. We didn't have enough healthcare workers. And we have lost almost 400,000 Americans. My heart goes out to those 400,000 families and friends. I have (so far) been lucky that I have not lost a loved one to this horrible virus.


How has your town or city handled the pandemic? Mine hasn't taken it seriously at all. And we appeared on a list of the 10 worst cities in America back in December. (worst for the number of cases we had) We are a pretty small community compared to New York City but we have been devastated by the virus. Our small (<100 bed) hospital was overwhelmed for a bit. Our health care workers are exhausted and many have had to suffer with the virus too. Our county commission had a temporary member (an anesthesiologist, no less) on the board that just didn't believe the virus was real. So he refused to get on board with encouraging simple things like mask wearing, social distancing, etc. He went as far as to suggest we use essential oils to ward of the virus he didn't believe existed. Oh my! No wonder we were a hot spot. And I love my essential oils!!


I will hold my breath as this new administration gets started. I pray they will get partisan help. I want to see the United States of America to really be the great country it can be. We will all need to do our part. It is time to become UNITED. Because if we remain divided I am afraid our democracy will fail and fall. On you onboard? 



Monday, January 11, 2021

Currently....

 








Outside my window...Today is January 11, 2021. That feels strange to even type. 2021. Can you remember when we were getting ready for 2000? Y2K and all that jazz? Seems like just yesterday and it was 21 (TWENTY-ONE) years ago. An entire generation of kids have been born and reached full adulthood. I have two granddaughters who will both become 21 years old this year. This is evidence that time certainly slips away in the most rapid way. Anyway....the sun was shining today and it was in the low 50's. No snow. A crazy weather day for January in Kansas. How is the weather in your neck of the woods?



Pondering..I can't help but continue to ponder the current state of affairs for country.  The news is filled with people who tried to destroy the democracy of America. I always took for granted that I would live in a democracy. Not so much anymore. We can never, again, let our guards down. And, through no fault of our own (well, maybe there are some that we can blame) a horrible pandemic continues to rage through our country. It has finally reached my family. Harley, my granddaughter, tested positive last Monday. Just three days after being at my house. Her case is mild and she has continued to work. She works at a nursing home and that is their rules. Unless you are running a fever you must report to work. She did miss one day. She has exclusively worked the Covid unit since testing positive. I do not understand the rationale behind having people continue to work except there would be no one to take care of the elders if they sent them all home. Many of the workers at our local nursing homes and hospital have tested positive. We are a hotspot in the nation. But we are also a town who refuses to wear masks and scream about our rights!!! So there is that.


Watching...I have watched too much news. I need to turn the channel. I do enjoy You Tube videos of home decorating, DIY's, cooking, etc. But I feel like it is my duty to keep up with the current news. 


Reading/Listening...I am currently listening to A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara. It is good. Hard to listen to at times. But a very 'real' story of four guys lives who were friends through and beyond college. 


 




Creating...I have not been creating anything. I gave up on my bullet journal last year. I hope to get back to it this year. I don't decorate my mantle for the seasons anymore. My Christmas tree is still in the corner, partially decorated. I will get to it. Maybe. Soon. Or later. 


Learning...I am learning the same lessons we are all learning right now. Do we really know our neighbors? I have lost family and friends over the past year because of differing political beliefs. I know many of my neighbors supported the opposite candidate from me. Now I wonder...are they safe? Or do they want to kill those of us who don't agree with them. I know that sounds cynical. But, did you watch TV last Wednesday. 


Planning....I really do have plans for the new year. I am going to get all of these rooms gone through and down-sized. Come hell or high water. Have I said that before? 


Eating...I love soup. And I eat a lot of it. Right now, in the crock-pot, is Mexican Chicken soup. And a lot of it. I will be eating it all week. But I don't mind that.


Drinking....Water and coffee. And an occasional coke or gingerale.


Thankful for...I am thankful for my family. I am thankful for both of my sons. Both have their own struggles and I will support them through everything. I am thankful for my grandkids. The ones who I know where they are and the one I haven't a clue. 


A quote to share...




How is the new year going for you?

Thursday, January 7, 2021

Just Let Trump be Trump

 How many times did I hear just that when listening to the news during the last four years. Well, they let Trump be Trump and see what happened yesterday. I wish I could say I was shocked and surprised. But, I wasn't. Not even a little bit. For the past four years I have watched this president "just be Trump." You watched too. But did you see it the same way I saw it?

This is not the first time I have written about Donald Trump on my blog. But I hope it will be the last time. I hope something is now done about him. At least he did not win the election. I have been speaking out about this president since he was elected. Actually, before he was elected. I have lost family and friends because of him. They bought into his bullshit. And I just can't let things go. I knew he would not be good for America. I knew he would bring us more problems than he brought us any good. In my opinion, he is not a good man. Good men have a completely different DNA than Donald Trump. 

One of the main reasons I did not like him is that he is a LIAR. He lied and he lied and he lied. And there were very few people who could stand up to him. I would hear things like: "but the economy is good", or "the Stock Market is better than it has ever been". America sold her soul for money. It's as simple as that. I would rather die poor tomorrow than die thinking I did not speak out about this man.

What I watched yesterday on TV was disgusting. It was terrifying. It was abnormal. It was amoral. And it was incited by the president of the United States of America. And that should give all of us pause. I listened to his entire speech yesterday. The one where he stood behind a bullet proof screen and told his crazed supporters that "we will never give up." "YOU'LL NEVER TAKE BACK OUR COUNTRY WITH WEAKNESS. YOU HAVE TO SHOW STRENGTH AND YOU HAVE TO BE STRONG". Those were his words. Then they marched down Pennsylvania Avenue to the Capitol Building and overtook it with anger and violence. FOUR PEOPLE WERE KILLED. Four of his supporters. But nevertheless, KILLED. His own attorney, Rudy Giuliani, told the supporters, at the same rally, that we needed to have "trial by combat". 

I am appalled.  But, more than 7 million people voted for him in 2020. 7 million!!! Did those people believe what he has fed to them for four years? Or are there that many people who are just in it for the fight? If he just gave them the best economy and the greatest stock markets of all time, what are they so angry about?? That he lost?? Maybe some of them should have worked harder to get him re-elected. I know how hard I worked to see that he not be re-elected. 

He will be gone in two weeks. But in the meantime what more harm will come to America? What can be done to prevent this in the future? I am going to do everything I can to make sure those who supported him in Washington D.C.will not get to continue with their dream to become president. I'm looking at you Josh Hawley and Ted Cruz. I hold you both responsible for the part you played in this. But there are many others. Their is a long, long list of those who enabled him and just turned their heads. 

A lot of people said, "just let Trump be Trump."

 

Tuesday, December 29, 2020

Why I No Longer Read Books


 I've been an avid reader for as long as I can remember. I would read anything and everything I could get my hands on. My mom told me that she once found me hiding in the closet reading from the Better Homes and Garden Family Medical Guide.I was just 6. The one we owned looked just like the one over to the left. And it was well worn. I loved that book. It had pictures. Lots of pictures with over-lays. The ones that fascinated me the most were the ones of the pregnant lady and the baby.(Probably why I was hiding) I wish I still had that particular book. I have a newer copy from the 1970's. But it's not the same. Or else I just grew up. One or the other. 

Then I went on to other books. My favorites were the Nancy Drew Mystery series. These aren't mine either. I didn't own them. I got them from the library. But they looked like these, This would have been in the 1950-1960's. I still like  mysteries or thrillers. I just don't like to 'read' so much anymore. 

I am not sure when I stopped liking to read. Now I prefer to listen to audio books. I didn't use to like them, but once I trained my mind not to wander from the story, it is the only way to go. I can turn off the lights. I can set the book to play for 30 minutes, 60 minutes, or whatever. And if I fall asleep it is okay. There isn't a light to turn off. I don't still have my glasses on my face. And the book hasn't fallen to the floor, with my place lost, and pages often creased. And when it comes to finding myself waiting somewhere my book is always with me. I have the app on my phone. And I always have my phone.

Some books aren't ideal to listen to. But those are the ones that are stacked on my coffee table. The ones I flip through. Like the Martha Stewart Organizing Book. Or that Better Homes and Garden Medical Book. Those are books made for browsing. Not reading!


So I just don't read books anymore. I listen. And I like it. What about you? Do you like to read a book? Hold it in your hands. Sniff the pages. Or have you made the switch to audio books? Or do you do both? Curious minds like to know. 


Friday, December 18, 2020

The End of a Miserable Year

 Finally, we are coming to the end of this very odd and horrible year. It wasn't all bad but what was bad was very, very bad. Wouldn't you agree with that? 

I am over this damn virus crap. What about you? I have stayed home, almost entirely, since the beginning of March. I order groceries online and go pick them up or have them delivered. Depends on my mood. I have not missed grocery shopping because it wasn't something I liked to do anyway. But, I do miss Dollar Tree and Hobby Lobby. And an occasional trip to Wichita to Target and Michael's. I don't miss restaurants because I don't like to eat out alone. But I do miss the occasional dinner out with my son or my grandkids. I don't miss going out to visit other people. Because I am really a loner and a homebody. But I do miss having people come to my house. I miss going out to see my little brother. (He is more of a homebody than me). I miss rational people. You know those times before people became so angry at being asked to wear a simple piece of cloth over their mouth and nose to prevent infecting others or themselves. So much ignorance and selfishness in this world. Other countries have been so much smarter than the United States. And we are supposed to be the 'greatest' country in the world. I am wondering if 'our rights' have really made us dumber and sicker. We have certainly had more deaths than anyone else.

Can you believe it is almost Christmas? Once again we will have a very small gathering of just the immediate family. Paige came over and decorated my tree. I don't know that I would have even bothered this year. Here is a short video she took after she was finished with it.  





Thanksgiving was interesting this year. I got up early to put the turkey in the oven and soon noticed that my oven was really, really hot. I have a little oven temp guage so I put it in the oven and the current temp registered at 500 degrees. Jerked out that turkey and fiddled with the knob. No luck in lowering the temp so I turned the oven off. No problem. I have double ovens. Same thing happened in that over. My turkey cooked in under 2 hours. But it was still good and with careful monitoring I managed to complete the meal. The bad news is I am being told the ovens cannot be fixed. They were put in this house when it was built back in the early 70's. The repairman told me they can no longer get the needed thermostat to fix this brand. It is a GE. He attempted to sell me new ovens. To the tune of a starting price of $1200. I am not one to make rash decisions and decided to call another repairman to give me a second opinion. This is the only other repairman for wall ovens in our area. AND HE HAS COVID. So I guess I will just wait until after the new year. New Year, better news. Cross your fingers.I just won't be doing any baking. We are having soups for Christmas. YAY.

Looks innocent
Teddy is doing good and brings me lots of joy. I got up to let him out in the middle of the night and right at the end of my driveway stood, not one, but two big deer. Teddy took off after them. Just like a good hunting dog. With his nose to the ground and flying as fast as he could. I didn't even have shoes on. I put on my shoes and took off after them. What a sight this would have been for my neighbors. But, thankfully, it was 3 a.m. Eventually, he stopped chasing them and came to find me. He was full of burrs, twigs, dead leaves...took me 30 minutes to pick it all off him. Needless to say he only goes out now on the end of a tether. No more chasing the wildlife in the middle of the night. 

I want to wish all of you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Let's pray for some semblance of normal in 2021.

See you next year!

 

Friday, November 13, 2020

Never Another 2020

 How is it even possible that I stopped blogging?? It has been the craziest of years hasn't it? I think about all of my blogging friends a lot but I just don't have the gumption to sit at the computer and compose. Has anyone else felt this way? Any how I will try to catch you all up on what is going on in my life. 

 I am pretty much still in 'quarantine'. Our town opened back up and the people went crazy and we are now suffering for it. We have more Covid here right now than months ago when it was bad everywhere else. Our hospital is full and turning patients away. We have had 28 deaths. I know that doesn't sound like a lot but we are not a big city. Just a town of about 40,000. The fools here will not wear masks. It is a Republican town so they think it is a hoax.  I haven't much left my house since all this nonsense started. I get my groceries through ClickList with Kroger's so all I have to do is drive down and get them loaded up. I have been doing this for a long, long time so that really isn't new. I have driven to the post office and went inside ONCE to mail a package. I wore my mask and social distanced. The cost of mailing the package was almost more than what I was mailing. That is a crime, isn't it? I have been to one funeral. I told you about that in my last post. It was my ex-sister-in-law who died. She was the reason I became a nurse and I really loved her a lot. Saw a lot of the ex's family members. Even saw the ex, but didn't get close enough to talk to him. LOL! Went to one wedding (more on that later) where there was NO social distancing and NO ONE wore a mask. But, thank the good Lord, I did not get the virus. I have been to Walmart once. While there I got a haircut, bought some bread and a can of hairspray. I wore my mask and everyone in the store (except one man and one teenage boy) had a mask on. And that is the only places I have been. It is a good thing I like to stay at home because I cannot imagine what people who like to gad about are going through. My sons have been here a few times. The grand kids have been here when I let them come. I talk outside in the yard with the neighbors, the mailman, the UPS dude and that sums up my social contacts since March.



This is a 'first peek' 
Some of you may know that Harley got married. It was a tumultuous beginning of the year for her and her man but they went ahead and decided to get married. I mentioned that too in my last post. I did NOT help with most of the wedding plans. She has a pretty pushy mother-in-law who wanted to do a lot of it so I said let her. The wedding took place in his parents church in a little town about 10 minutes from here. It wasn't as big as she had hoped but it was nice. I walked her down the aisle. They had a reception/dinner after the ceremony and that was the end of that. She and Isaiah went to Colorado for a few day honeymoon and now both are back to work. I guess everything is okay. I don't hear a lot from her as she is working 12 hour shifts and they are the night ones. So if she is not at work she is asleep. I remember those shifts from my 25+ years of working nights at the hospital. The nursing home she is working in has several cases of Covid-19 so I do not encourage her to visit. To be honest, I forbid it.
A beautiful gown and veil

This sign hung on the end of the pew where I sat

Last minute advice

Paige was her maid of honor

Putting her veil on

My oldest son, Harley's dad

Paige, Harley and me with Papa's picture

This charm was tied into her bouquet
Her favorite picture of her papa

These are my bonus grandkids with their 
mom and dad at the wedding

Now for the bad news. On August 28 my precious

little Charlie died. We were at home minding our own business and having a good day. He had eaten normally, gone outside a bit, had normal bathroom habits and mostly a good day. He seemed a bit quieter than usual but I wasn't really concerned about him. That evening he was in his bed (which was at my feet) when I noticed he was sitting up and panting heavily. I was immediately alarmed and placed a call to the vet. My vet does not offer in town emergency services and I would have had to drive him to Wichita. I was NOT going to do that. So I called another vet and after he talked me through a few simple observations told me to meet him at the office IMMEDIATELY. Harley happened to be coming to my house and we set off. Sadly, little Charlie died in my arms just as we got to the parking lot of the vet. (It was about 15 minutes from my house). The vet thinks he had a heart attack. It was a muggy, hot day and he said that often takes little old doggies like Charlie. Needless to say, I was devastated. That little guy was the reason I got up every morning. This vet thought Charlie was probably older and sicker than the vet I was taking him to believed. But nevertheless, my heart was broken. I vowed right then and there to NEVER have another dog. It is just too damn hard to lose them. First Bailey, and now Charlie.

 BUT, just five days later (yes, 5 days) the
The picture she sent

rescue person I had gotten Charlie from reached out to me. She wanted to know if I was open to seeing a picture of a puppy. I was pretty damn sure I didn't want a puppy but I said, "sure, send me a picture." And that is how I fell in love with Teddy Magoo. He is a 20 month old Havanese puppy whose owner was needing to re-home him. She had paid a bit of money for him but was willing to GIVE HIM for free to a good home. She brought him for a visit and I knew almost instantly he would be the one who would heal my heart. And, boy, has he. He is not fully housebroken. But we are making great strides. He has not been neutered but that will be happening soon. He needs to be caught up with his vaccinations and that is coming too. Right now the vets are running behind because of Covid-19 so we might wait until after the holidays. His previous owner's reason for re-homing him was she had recently gotten a divorce and was needing to go back to work and Teddy (she called him Zeke) used the dog door to go out but wouldn't use it to come back in. She also simply didn't have the funds to have him neutered and vaccinated. He was starting to mark inside her house. I keep him with a belly band on when we are inside but I rarely see him try to mark. He does have accidents and the belly band helps with that. He is such a joy. Much more rambunctious than either of my previous Yorkies. He loves to play. He loves to run after 'anything' I throw and he brings it back. He loves to sit in the bay window and watch the world go by. He loves to walk on the leash. We have had a few adventures that I will write about in future posts.He doesn't like riding in the car. Yet! We are working on it. And he doesn't really like other people or other animals. That will have to change too. He barks more than the Yorkies did but that is a behavior I am working on too. I am smitten, once again. 
Teddy Magoo

He loves being outside. I don't have
a fenced yard and he runs off so he has 
a tether for now

Adore this face

Such a good boy

 So that is my life right now. I am happy the election is over. Now we just need to have a grown up President that will admit he has lost the race. I think things will be peaceful once we get Joe and Kamala rightfully installed in the White House. It has been exhausting. But none of the crap he has pulled has surprised me. I am sorry if he was your choice. I am not sorry that he is going to be gone. So much division caused by his hatred. It is time to move on.

Hope everyone of you is happy, healthy, and looking forward to this God-awful year to end. Looking forward to getting around to all of your blogs and seeing what all of you are doing. 

Sunday, July 12, 2020

Holy Moly

I cannot believe I have not been here since the first of April. Doesn't time fly when we are having so much fun??

So what is everyone up to now days? Are you still in isolation? Social distancing when out and about? Wearing a mask? Times are crazier than anything I ever thought I would see in my lifetime.

I am pretty much still staying at home all the time. I have stopped having groceries delivered and I venture out to pick them up with Clicklist at my local Kroger's. (It is called Dillons in my neck of the woods). I still prefer this over in-store shopping and probably always will. For the most part I am getting most of what I order. There are still many things unavailable. It remains a mystery to me why this is so, but it is. What I have noted is that my grocery bill has increased. And I don't think it has a thing to do with me eating more. Have you noticed that too?

I did have to venture out for a funeral last month. My ex-sister-in-law died of heart problems. She was my hero and the reason I became a nurse. I always loved her even when I could no longer stand her husband's brother. LOL! The funeral was interesting. It was big. About half the people there wore masks. They passed a microphone around for people to say what their favorite memory of Ruthie was. Interesting in a global pandemic, to say the least. I didn't participate. They had a type of social distancing. Every other pew was left open. But people sat side by side on the pews. Mostly in family groups however. Was a beautiful service and a fitting tribute to a wonderful woman.

I also went with Harley to order her wedding cake. I know I told you the wedding was off. Well, it's back on. (for now). Yes, she moved into her own apartment the first part of April. Wedding was off. They were broken up. Then they were dating again. Then wedding back on for September 2021. And now it is for September 26, 2020.(and no, she says she is not pregnant. I just shrug!She is really on the run to get a weeding planned in a short time.(One of the reasons for the break-up is he was stressed out with wedding plans) See me shaking my head again. Live and learn for everyone. Right?? Anyway, the cake is ordered and I have a dress coming. That is about my part in participating. Her future mother-in-law is crafty and helping her with a lot of it. Stay tuned.....

I wake up every morning to see if Trump is still the president and how he has embarrassed America today. He has so badly mishandled this Covid-19 crisis we are in. And now he is just pretending it has gone away. I cannot believe (yes, I can) how he allowed Putin to get by with paying bounties on our American soldiers. And the race war he is trying to start....and the Roger Stone BS. Surely all of America's good people will see the need to replace him in November.

Little Charlie is still by my side. He is the sweetest thing ever and provides me with a lot of love. I did finally get him in for a grooming after going without for three months. He really, really needed a haircut. We spend a good amount of time lying around.

 Hope you are all well!