I want to get better at writing. I need to put my thoughts on paper (or in this case on the screen) and just let them flow from my heart. That is what I love about Five Minute Friday. Kate gives us the prompt and we write for five minutes and then share with the fine people who link-up at her blog. You can find out all about it by going over to Heading Home.
This week the prompt is CONTROL
I am a control freak. I don't know if I really am a control freak but my family tells me that I am. I've often wondered, whenever they say that, why is that a bad thing?? I like to know what is going on. I like to know when it is going to go on. And I want the details. So, why is that bad?
It seems to cause my family a lot more stress than it causes me. I am not a person who is comfortable with surprises. I like to be in the know. In control. But I don't have to have ALL the control.
When Richard was alive he was pretty much the one who was in control at this house. He decided what we were going to do and when we were going to do it. And I let him decide. I liked how he would map out our entire vacations and do all the planning. All I had to do was pack and jump on board. We always had a good time. I always liked his planning. But I never once thought of him having an issue with being a control freak. And I am pretty sure he didn't think I was a control freak. Maybe it is a generational thing. Younger people don't seem to want to have someone in control of them. Maybe that's it!
I really don't like being the one in control now. Hell, I would dump these responsibilities onto the lap of anyone who would take them. I just need to know when? And how? And where can I meet you? At what time? Okay, maybe I am a bit of a control freak! But, just a bit!
One of the things I am trying hard to let go of this year is worries. Maybe if I can let go of being in control I will worry much less. What do you think? Are you a control freak? What is it you have to control? Do you find it easy to let go and let God as they say?