Monday, December 1, 2014

Taking a Break

I am taking a break. I don't feel like writing anymore. I am tired of pretending that everything is okay, when it is not. I might be back next week. And it might take longer. I have never liked the month of December...not ever! It brings with it, not joy and happiness, but sadness and pain. I am putting the blog to sleep for awhile. I need to rest and get things back together. On my own, in my own way, and do it for me! For once. For a change. See you....whenever!

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  1. I'll be waiting for your return! xo

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    1. Thank you Allison. I know my friends will be back.

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  2. Paula, I'm not going to say, "I understand" -- because I've not walked in your shoes.
    Instead, "I care" -- because I do. :)

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    1. Thank you for caring Myra. I feel very honored to have you as a friend. It has been very challenging and I feel as though what I am writing is not REAL. It would be horrible for the reader if I really wrote what I feel about my life right now. So I have tried to grieve and put a spin on it. I can't do it anymore.

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  3. Paula, I truly understand the December thing; its a hard month for me too, but I'm not in the same shoes as you with grieving your husband. I think it is wise to take a break and take care of yourself. We'll be here whenever you come back (one time I took a 15 month break and another time a 6 month break) and my friends, like yours, were there when you come back.

    betty

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    1. Thank you so much Betty. You have been a true blue blogging friend. I appreciate that you understand. I just need some time to not write what I feel. And to try to get a handle on all the tears. They seem to never stop

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  4. Dear Paula, take good care of yourself. December is a rough, rough month and sometimes holds more sadness than joy. Will definitely be back. cornwallst59@hotmail.com

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    1. Thank you Carol for understanding. December has always been a rough, rough month for me. I have always had those great "Norman Rockwell" expectations. And they almost never come to pass. I am always very lonely in December. Even surrounded by family. Thank you for leaving me your email address too!

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  5. Hi Paula .. not surprised .. .and I'm glad you've had the courage to take some time out. Take care and we're around if you need us .. and you can always email me if you'd like ... all the best - Hilary

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  6. Dear Paula, Take your time. Keep your own schedule. We will miss you but you will be with us in thoughts and prayers. Holidays can be very hard....know that we love you.

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  7. You've been on my mind today, Paula!
    Taking a page from sweet Carol ...
    If n' when you feel like it, I can be found at mwm387@cox.net.

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    1. Thank you Myra...and thanks for your email. I will be in touch

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  8. I always hated December, especially when I thought my daughter was lost to me. I don't pretend to understand what you're going through, but I'll be here when you get back. Take care, friend..

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    1. I have always hated it too. But Richard LOVED Christmas so this year will be really hard! I'm glad you are my friend Lisa

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  9. Everyone needs one kiddo. You go and inhale and exhale some and take care of yourself. Will miss you, but you come first.

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  10. I know just how you feel. I have been using my computer to study, but rarely have the energy to write something. I guess I don't know where to start or what to write anymore. It was always about mom with a little family thrown in. I miss you though...I think of you every day. Glad you're wise enough to take the time you need. I will try and send some of my holiday nerdiness your way...I am giddy this time of year. I put up 6 trees...because I could!!!! Love you friend - sending you lots of positive energy.

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    1. I haven't put up a single decoration yet. I will have to force myself. I only did it every year for Richard. He loved the holidays so much. Me, I've never been a big fan. Love you too....glad you are my friend

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  11. Hello, Paula. I just discovered your blog . . . because you were kind enough to leave a comment on my blog. I hope you can find the peace and comfort you need. Hugs to you. XO (December is a tough month.)

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  12. I took that break. Sometimes just have to. And you, my friend, deserve the break. Take all the time you need (I already know your back...but still take as much time as you need). Love you girl.

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    1. You took a really, really long break! I missed you. I couldn't stay away that long

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    2. I did take a really really long break. I missed you too, but i thought about you all the time. I'm just glad you were on Instagram so I could see you...haha.

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    3. Instagram is how I knew you were okay too!

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