This is part of my 31 Day Five Minute Free Writes challenge within a challenge. I will be linking up with 31 Day Challenge at The Nester's as well as at Heading Home. For a list of all my letters you can go here.
I have had a taste of mourning before. Nothing like this. I lost a baby and mourned her. But I hadn't held her in my arms or heard her voice. I lost my dad at such a young age that mourning his loss was so different than yours. I only had him for 7 years and you were with me for over 36. That was just a tiny taste of what loving and losing was like.
It was tough when I lost my mom. I used to cry everyday. Usually in the shower. That seems to be my favorite place to cry. No one can hear and the tears are washed down the drain. It took a long time to realize that mom was gone. I often thought, "I need to remember to tell mom," only to remember she was no longer here. And when I lost my best friend, Nanne, it was like part of my world was ripped away. I mourned her for months. For years. I still mourn the loss.
But it was all just a taste...I miss you more everyday. And everyday my heart breaks. Grief is like nothing I have ever tasted...