This is part of my 31 Day Five Minute Free Writes challenge within a challenge. Letters to Richard..my recently deceased husband. I will be linking up with 31 Day Challenge at The Nester's as well as at Heading Home. For a list of all my letters you can go here.
I woke up early the morning after you died and lay quietly in my bed. Trying to take it all in. I knew you were no longer here in the house. Yet I felt your presence. You were still close to me. It was the beginning of a new day. A new life. A life I was going to have to live without you. But I wasn't ready. And I'm still not. I will move on when I feel ready to move on. But not yet. It's too new.
Do you remember when we used to wake up early and the house was still very quiet? It would still be dark outside. You'd call my name. I would answer. You would say, "I don't need anything. I just wanted to know if you were still there." Of course I was still here. Where else would I be? You needed me. I
wasn't going anywhere.
Well, I'm still here. There is a new life beyond the door. A new day is waiting. A new sun is rising. I will have a heart and a head filled with all our beautiful memories...but for now, I'm still here.
Forever and always,