Wednesday, August 20, 2014
I'm a Planner
I have always been a 'planner'. I like a set schedule and I want everyone to stick to it. I hate being late. I am always the 'early one.' I plan dinner for tomorrow, today. This past couple of years I have been planning my meals for a week in advance. Then I plan my grocery shopping and life is so much smoother.
However, life doesn't always go according to my plan. And it creates a lot of anxiety. Three years ago, when Richard had a stroke, all of my best-laid plans went to hell. I had to quit working, so that he would have someone home with him all the time. This created another kind of planning that I was not at all used to doing. Budgeting. And I hated it. Richard had always done this. Also, I had to become the caretaker of the house. And Richard had always done that. So I had to become a better planner.
I am a list maker. And I use my calendar. Without my calendar I would be lost. I have a calendar on the computer, on my phone, and a paper calendar. And I keep them, all 3, set up with our schedules. Two teenagers can create a lot of schedule planning.
Since I knew that Richard's death was 'coming', I had plans for it. I wrote his obituary early, had the telephone lists ready for who needed to be called and in what order, things lined up to take to the mortuary with us for that 'horrible meeting' that takes place when you are your most vulnerable. I was ready! The only thing not planned was my reactions. And you can't plan for emotions, I guess.
If you would like to share how you plan with us then go visit my friend Lisa at My Sweet Peanut and join her One Word Wednesday link-up.