I am going to call this stage 3. Hopefully we will move out of it and back to stage 2. But if not, then I am getting myself ready. Richard has been sick again. He is also having another bout with CHF (congestive heart failure). It was a very long, long night last night. Wasn't sure he would be with me this morning. But the good Lord is just not yet ready for this man. An extra visit from the Hospice nurse today. She gave me lots of reassurances and that is what I was needing. Even though I am a nurse, I am a wife first. And even though I think I am ready, when it looks like it is going to happen I don't want to let go of him just yet. No matter taking care of him is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.
The new plan will be to care for him while in his bed during the day now. And let him be in the chair in the evening. I just cannot get him up by myself any longer. He is no longer bearing weight on his feet at all. I had to cut off his pj bottom's last night when the catheter was giving him problems. So the pj bottoms are gone for now as well. The nurse has restarted the diuretics and he will be on oxygen 24/7 for now. We were able to get his wedding ring off of his very swollen fingers. His feets and those private parts we don't discuss are also very swollen. And his lungs are full of fluid. So it is cough, cough, cough.
But he ate a bit of supper tonight. He is taking fluids well still. And his color has greatly improved today. I am hopeful.
Thank you all for your thoughts and your prayers. It is a long, long road. And I don't know how close we are to the end of it. For now we will take it one day at a time.
On a good note, it was 80* today in Kansas