It is time for Five Minute Friday. Where we just write. Without editing. Without over-thinking. We are supposed to feel safe. And then we link-up with about a zillion people who can come and read everything you wrote. Oh, and you only write for Five Minutes on a word that Lisa-Jo chooses.And the one, and only rule, is to visit the person who linked right before you.
This week when I went to her blog to see what the word was my heart sank. JOY! There is no small way in hell that I can spend five minutes writing about joy when joy is just not something I am feeling today. Or really so much for the past few years. Or maybe for my whole life. I hear people talk about joy. I see people act joyful. But I honestly have never felt that curl your toes joy people talk and write about.
And I question! A lot! And everyone. About everything. Is this the life that God really wanted me to have? What is it that I am supposed to be learning here. I am currently reading The Bible In a Year...in chronological order. And boy do I have a lot of questions. There isn't much joy in Deuteronomy. If you know what I mean.
Don't get me wrong. I am happy about things. I am happy to see my husband smile. I am happy that my grandchildren are safe and happy. I am happy when my son comes over on the weekends. But joy! Nope I just don't have that earth shattering joy! Sorry.
Now go read about Joy on Lisa-Jo's Blog. Maybe I will get some small hints as to what others find is their joy.