Wednesday, March 20, 2013

MICE, MICE, MICE........{SCREAM} MICE


First of all, before I answer this challenge, I want everyone to know that yesterday my husband took a pretty sudden and serious turn for the worse. We had him up to the commode and he stopped breathing and I could not feel a radial (wrist) pulse although I could still hear a heartbeat with my stethoscope.  It was slow and faint. Drooping of his left eye and mouth makes me think he has had another little stroke. Or a vagal response. Was pretty scary for about 30 minutes. My brother was here with me. We called in the family and the grand kids. And lo, and behold today he is better. It has been a roller coaster ride, for sure. But I am thinking the end is getting nearer. Just wanted you all to know in case I disappear from my posting for a time. I will be back though. As I need this for my therapy and I would miss my blogger friends.

Now on to what I am afraid of!



I am afraid of mice. I am REALLY afraid of mice. I am so afraid of mice that I cannot even put a picture on this post of a real mouse. I had to chose a cartoon-type mouse. I can't look at a mouse on TV. I can't look at the picture of a mouse. I am wondering how I am going to make it through this post just talking about mice.

I am not kidding. I am not talking about a little fear. Nope! This is a screaming, crying, heart beating fast, sweating, terrified fear of mice. If I see a mouse or talk too much about mice, then I have nightmares about mice. Scary nightmares about mice. The WILLARD type nightmares about mice.

My husband says that I have a special "I have seen a mouse" scream that he recognizes right away. My sons used to laugh over the years about their mother's irrational fear of mice. I have tried to outgrow it. I have tried to deal with it. Nothing has worked. I am AFRAID of mice.

I don't like dead mice any better than I like the ones that are alive. A dead mouse will cause me to panic just as much as a live mouse. Once, when trying to conquer my fear of mice, we had a particularly bad winter at our house and more than a couple of mice moved in. I wouldn't let my husband use spring traps to kill them because I ALWAYS heard that trap 'snap' and then I was frozen in fear until he got it out of the house. And he couldn't leave any traps out during the day while he was at work (I worked night shift and slept in the daytime). We decided to use those nifty glue traps. But he had to get them out of the house before he left for work. One morning he forgot. I was lying on the couch watching TV after a hard night at the hospital. Suddenly, I started to hear this loud squeaking noise. And I noticed a glue trap moving down by the TV. Now what the HELL was I going to do. There was a LIVE (although trapped) mouse right there on the floor next to the TV. Was I going to bed? Nope. It might follow me. I know, I know. Irrational! I told you so.
So I got my husband's heavy leather work gloves from the garage and put them on. I grabbed that glue trap off the floor. So far, so good! I ran like crazy out to our garbage can, lifted the lid, tossed the thing inside and ran like a wild woman back into the house! My heart felt like it was going to explode out of my chest as I stood there holding that door shut. As I began to calm down, I realized just how stupid this was. That mouse was not going to get off the glue trap, run up out of the depths of the trash can and chase me into the house. Irrational, I tell you.  I was pretty proud of myself for being able to do this. I called my husband at work and told him of this huge accomplishment. He wanted to know if I had stomped on the trap before I threw it away. HELL NO! And I also did not let him put another one of those nasty things in our house.

Thankfully we haven't had a mouse in the house (ha! ha!) for a few years. But I am pretty sure I will be just as afraid of them as always.



I am going over to Tiffany's and see if there are any others who have irrational fears such as mine.





18 comments:

  1. Is it wrong that I'm TOTALLY fascinated by this?

    I mean, I have an irrational fear of anything that flies, stings/bites and buzzes. If I am sitting peacefully and hear the tell-tale sounds of the buzzing wings in the vicinity, my "spidey senses" start tingling. I will completely disengage from conversation ... usually stand...

    but if one of those things comes NEAR ME... I'm screaming, arms flailing and I'm RUNNING!

    However, if it comes down to it...and there's one in the house (shivers) I have been known to get the vacuum after it...and then make someone else kill it (we have a canister vac)... OR I will knock it down with a broom and step on it..but I freak out and can't clean it up.

    I had a BEE fly into my CAR while I was driving. I just about flipped the hell out and ... let me tell you.... It was NOT pretty.... LOL

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    1. I totally understand this kind of fear!

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  2. I also wanted to tell you how sorry I was for your husband's episode. :( I have a friend right now who is also losing her husband slowly... not to old age, but to illness (MSA - multiple system atrophy). His name is Frank Cervone. He used to be a City Councilman in Fairborn, Ohio. I used to live in Ohio and work with his wife. I was reading some of her posts recently and they sounds so much like yours.... just breaks my heart. Thinking about you.

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    1. Thank you April. It is really had to lose them slowly like this. It is hard to lose them at all, but slowly with so many ups and downs is making me into an old woman. My husband is older than me by 18 years so old age is part of his problemm but he has had a stroke and he has Parkinson's disease.

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  3. Paula,

    I am new to your blog, but my thoughts are with you.

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    1. Thank you. That means a lot to me

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  4. Thinking of you, your husband and family. It can't be easy.

    I have an irrational fear of moths, and everything you described sounds exactly like me with moths. But strange enough I'm totally fine with butterflies even though they are very similar. Does your fear span to other similar animals e.g. hamsters etc?

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    1. That is strange that you are fearful of moths but not butterflies. Yep, I hate hamsters, rats, gerbils or anything else that resembles a mouse....

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  5. I'm so very sorry to hear about your husband. My thoughts are with you both.

    As for your fear, I'm just stymied. I think mice are adorable. I had them for pets for a while, but they aren't really that much fun because they mainly just spend their miserable little caged lives being terrified of you. I keep rats as pets. I love my little princesses! Are you afraid of rats too?

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    1. EEEkkkk! Adorable? I don't think so. And of course I am afraid of rats too!

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  6. Sending you lots of light and love, Paula. Keep us updated.

    Mice? Really?

    (Just Kidding)

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  7. Paula, you know you and your family are always in my thoughts--this has got to be SUCH a hard time for you. I don't have any really irrational fears, although spiders do freak me out a bit.

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    1. Thank you Lisa. It is hard but we will get through it. I thought for sure he was gone the other day. But you know how crazy things like this can be at times. Spiders don't freak me out a bit. Isn't that crazy

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  8. Saying a prayer for strength for you as you face the road ahead, and sending warm thoughts your way. :-) Your fear of mice sounds exactly like my fear of roaches. They freak me out!

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    1. Thank you Grace. I don't like roaches either but nothing like my fear of mice!

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  9. I wish I were there to give you a hug. My prayers are with your family. As for mice, I definitely scream and jump on the couch if I see or hear one. I used to have two great mice catchers - my cat and my dalmatian. Unfortunately, my animals now just look at the mouse and at me squealing. I can look at mice at pet stores and things. I thought about buying one, but we had a hamster and that was close enough.

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    1. Thank you Cristy. I felt your hug all the way through the internet!

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